… and that is; to never grow up…i wanna be a kid, in a grown body, until the end..

Like in this song, originally by Tom Waits: https://youtu.be/CWh4xHeFMIQ

I don’t need money, i don’t need love, i don’t need success – all i’m asking god, is to never let me grow up.. I don’t want to achieve an grown-intelligence, mature and become a man..

There’s a drug dealer on swedish darknet that calls himself “The Real Peter Pan”, i love that guy–he clearly sells drugs rather than getting himself a real job– what an inspiration – to stay in a teenage-state!

But i don’t need to sell drugs, since i’m pensioned.. If i so need to lose everything and live on the streets, i just don’t want to become grown inside – i don’t want to rise to any adult responsibility, and become like they are, i want to make my life after Dobbs’ divine excuse..

I know “Bob” would approve for me to be his child in both senses of the word.. 

I had a talk with my favorite buddy, about exterminating all the “evil-people” on earth – i sent him that “pig-whore” post, to see what he thought about me after reading my cynical, hateful thinking for hateful and dark souls, he replied that i sounded like a 15-year old rebel – Well, translated, this is our conversation..

Björk Mobil, [2022-01-21 16:00]
You sound like a normal rebellious 15-year-old. who listens to Sator for darkness is so koool

Bruno Brown, [2022-01-21 16:15]
But being like a 15-year-old rebellious cat, I think is cool .. I do not necessarily want to grow up ..
Better not to be cynical – and instead get a lot of laughter and joy out of life and be funky?

Björk Mobil, [2022-01-21 16:17]
I understand the desire not to want to grow up. But it becomes empty and painful to try to stay.

Bruno Brown, [2022-01-21 16:18]
Everyone certainly has a childish mind… well, almost everyone ..
Mine is just imminently large

My question to you: As a subG, do you believe a typical SubG’s childlishness is simply imminently large..?

Or are all you BIG GROWN MEN, and me the only one under-developed, and left in a childish state?

The chance to grow up, has unfortunately passed me – that train has left the station of my brain…i mean, i’m more immature and ignorant and irresponsible and less of a gentleman, NOW than i were when i was 18 years old, now im soon 38, does anyone of you feel that way..? 

It’s like, the drummer of The Doors, he observed how Jim Morrisons influence on the band made them go from light to dark, while all the rest of the bands, the popular-culture, seemed to go from dark to light – everyone else, but me, started ignorant assholes without any enlightenment, then they reach all that, while i started out at an young age with an intellect and an almost angelic presence – i was higher, brighter, more harmonious, more spiritual, when i was 18, while everyone else were ignorant JERKS chasing women genitalia, then i were enlightened and they were total mediocre jerks– then i am the one ending up the jerk, while they become grown, enlightened gentlemen…and vise versa… That’s the curse that has fallen on me..