AM I TAKING CRAZY-PILLS–? Did those drugs change me in SUCH A MANNER, that this only makes sense TO ME of all people – like i am almost-alone to have this notion in how i integrate and function in relation to other people?? AM ONLY I CONFIGURED IN SOME SORT OF MUSHROOM-CONFIGURATION OF MY MIND– i digress now, but hear me out, DEAR SEEKERS:
Like i said; AM I TAKING CRAZY-FUCKING-PILLS, because hear this: Isn’t life, as lived on a constant basis, suppose to BE/FEEL GROOVY–? i don’t get it– DOESN’T PEOPLE MERELY WANNA HAVE A GOOD TIME AND FEEL GOOD??? Because it FOR SURE doesn’t SEEM THAT WAY!!
What i mean, is, hear this out: If i’m at a house party, and suddenly some horrible drug kicks in and i’m having a core-melt-down, right there among a lot of people – then people would analyse me– OR, better example, lets say i got some stomach illness, and i totally shit my pants, AND i forgot the belt and the sweatpants are hanging on kinda loose, so the crap in my pants make the pants fall down to my ankles – and everyone can see my cheeks covered with shit smeared on the pale butt..
THEN, people at the party would go BESERK – some would grab their smartphone and start filming, some would heckle and taunt and tease and laugh – BUT, what i’m wondering is – why does it seem like an incident, such as that, must cause people to STOP SLACKING OFF – and enjoy themselves?? JUST RELAXING AND HAVING A GROOVY MIDNIGHT-DREAM.. Why aren’t PEOPLE more like totally ONE-TRACK-MIND – just ignoring everything and focusing solely on themselves?
Like me, i used to smoke Frop – and i had a big problem relaxing my nerves when i hanged, stoned, with a certain group of people i used to socialize with – and i couldn’t act i a fluent, natural, cool manner – so i became a prostitute from my mind tweaking-and-stressing–and fucking-up – so i couldn’t relax or just “be myself” in their company – BUT, what i realized was, that those people was A NEGATIVE POLE in the spectrum of POSITIVE AND NEGATIVE – they had no PMA!
When i was with my best friend, stoned, i could totally relax and just kick back and have real belly-laughs with him, like a total blast and we got along perfectly — BECAUSE; he was a POSITIVE ELEMENT – and by that i mean, that he could accept–WHATEVER – those other people ANALYZED ME, studied me! They sat and watched and analyzed and was KINDA ANAL IN SOME FANATIC WAY– like they, COULDN’T JUST SIMPLY DO THEIR OWN THING, and just stop analyzing and judging and JUST HAVING FUN, because they were so fucked so they couldn’t FORGET, FORGIVE AND ALLOW…just relax and focus on YOUR OWN FUN!
Real friends accept you the way you are – no matter how are, or not are, they stick with you NO MATTER WHAT, and just trying to have a good time – like DANCING DAFFODILS, on their OWN PRIVATE TRIP, not having a NEED OF YOU, gets with the trip ALONE and just leaves YOU TOTALLY ALONE – IGNORES WHATEVER THE THING IS THAT OCCURES OR DEVELOP – in the instance of having fun and UTTERLY-REJECTING ANY/EVERY OTHER NOTION THAN JUST HAVING THEIR-OWN-FUN-TIME – and in a way TOTALLY ABANDON YOU AS THEY JUST FLY AWAY TO THEIR OWN FUCKING PLANET – maybe he/she is hot on some girl/boy, and goes that route, or maybe they are just GENERALLY LOOKING FOR A NICE, GROOVY TIME, like FUN LOVIN’ and lets their SPIRIT RUN LOOSE..
PEOPLE; they don’t JUST want to feel good and have a good time – on top of it all, they are foremost BLOOD-HOUNDS, JUDGES, INVESTIGATORS, ANALYTICS and, actually, REAL ANAL JERKS – never capable of JUST, UTTERLY, BEING BLISSFUL– barely any blissful AT ALL, ACTUALLY!
They can’t detach themselves from the PETTY, SOCIAL-FIELD OF OTHER OR ANOTHER, to just ignore an detract LIGHT-YEARS GONE FROM, BLASTING-AWAY, from interference into their own SLACK-TRIP in COSMIC EARTH – in some SLACK-DREAM where they can go total ROMANTIC ON THE EXPERIENCE OF LIFE – and go TOTALLY FREE IN THEIR MINDS..
FREEDOM OF THE MIND, MEANS; IGNORANT BLISS – TO ALLOW AND LET EVERYTHING GO AWAY, without opinions, verdicts, accusations, etc etc – just erase your friend from your SOCIALISTIC-JUDGEMENTAL-RADAR– ACTUALLY; TO ERADICATE THAT RADAR FROM YOUR MIND! IN THE NEAREST TRASH CAN – BREAK AWAY INTO THE DREAM, THE ROMANTIC WORLD OF BEING UTTERLY HUMBLE AND FREE FROM THE CON!
FREE YOUR SOULS AND SAVE MY MIND!
PS: This is probably the most deranged and messy post i’ve made this far – but i need to vent this…just doing my best, hard to put into words what i mean exactly…
