As far as i’m concerned, i’m living, now, in my AFTER-LIFE…the life i lived when i was, like, from; 20-25 years old, up to 30, was my first life – i was strong, i was healthy i was HAPPY, then – NOW, i’m living my broken dreams..
But, once you’re destroyed and has become a BEAST of sorts…you lose it all; and, in someway also the pain of being a man – death, then, will come and hit you like a relief of sorts…you can thus relax and just live your life doing anything YOU WANT TO DO– until that moment of death – NO LIMITS FOR WAT YOU CAN DO, FOR DEATH ERASES ALL LIMITS– DAY JOB, HOUSE, TWO CARS, FAMILY–WHATEVER! As a beast of sunshine you can truly UNLOCK ultimate potential, you can live the broken dreams, BEYOND THE CON, THEN! As i said many times; Kill the father fuck the mother– REINVENT IT *ALL*, UNLOCK YOUR FULL ABNORMALITY-POTENTIAL, and RUN AMOK; AS FLYING HIGH AND GET IT ALL – break OUT of the MAELSTROM and OVER TO THE OTHER SIDE – “Chased our pleasures here, dug our treasures there, but can you still recall the time we cried– BREAK ON THROUGH TO THE OTHER SIDE!” – until you’re over and done; SHINE BRIGHT, THEN – LIKE IN THIS QUOTE:
I see myself as a huge fiery comet, a shooting star. Everyone stops, points up and gasps “Oh look at that!” Then — whoosh, and I’m gone… and they’ll never see anything like it ever again… and they won’t be able to forget me — ever.
Death thus gives HOPE – and; king or a beggar, WE ALL GO! “What does it matter; A dream of love or a dream of lies, we ALL gonna be the same place when we dies” – But that unlocks a lot, no need to live that con-way anymore, you can even choose to FADE AWAY, never even leaving the BED; YOU CANT LOSE YOU CAN ONLY WIN BY DEATH, IF YOU EMBRACE IT AND DISRUPTS THE ENTIRE CONSPIRACY– just DIE and all will be IMMACULATE – TOTAL-FREEDOM, TOTAL RELIEF FROM THE CONSPIRACY – So, why cry; NO, FLY, rather…why cry when you can RELIEVE YOURSELF AND FLY – FUCK WORK, FUCK DAY-JOBS, i’m basically just gonna roam this life, till death –
“We’re reaching for death
on the end of a candle
We’re trying for something
that’s already found us”
“He who makes a beast of himself gets rid of the pain of being a man.” ― Samuel Johnson
I honestly want FREEDOM TO ALL– i have found my way, i’m free – and getting eligible for DISABILITY SURE HELPED ME – i would die if i had to work more than i work now! I WANT TO LIVE IN ANOTHER WORLD – as i said before…it’s all SOMEONE ELSE’S IDEA – i see it all AS A MISTAKE by a folly APE-MAN, “where is the feast we were promised; the wine the new wine…dying on the vine” – I WANT THE WORLD!
And the way I WANT THE WORLD: I want the world to be ultimately FRUITY–FRUITY, GAY, WHIMSICAL–real mellowed-out, FANCY AND WARM AND A TENDERLY, SNUG WORLD – i see a BLEAK WORLD OF MAN! I Don’t see any GREAT GOLDEN COUPULATIONS, i see no ROMEO AND JULIET SHENANIGANS HAPPENING IN AN IDYLLIC WORLD, i don’t see IT, anything TRULY ROMANTIC in the streets of THIS WORLD – i see no great ROMANTIZISERS IN THIS WORLD; “We have been metamorphosised from a mad body dancing on hillsides to a pair of eyes staring in the dark.” WE LIVE THROUGH SCREENS! We have left OUT OUR OWN WORLD, left the monkey behind for a MORE PRIMITIVE BEAST; MAN – left this world behind us – we have erased OURSELVES FROM THE YARN OF THE UNIVERSE – to a pair of eyes staring into A SCREEN…the world is not some MARVELOUS DREAM-WORLD, WONDERLAND, that is all lost, man have not made that dream come true, he has strayed from THAT PATH – THE WORLD IS A SCREEN GLOWING IN OUR HOMES, the world is GONE! THIS IS NOT THE ACTUAL WORLD, we got here – this is a ROMANCE, a darkness – man has wandered lost into a romance, and; “ALL THE CHILDREN ARE INSANE, WAITING FOR THE SUMMER RAIN”…the world is a ship of fools – THEY’RE ALL FOOLISH NORMALS – filing languidly into the slaughter house, AS WE WORK AND TOIL – when we could have lived IN THE WORLD, as the actual world of; A PSYCHEDELIC PARADISE!
BECAUSE, after experiencing a psychedelic experience, like when you have taken LSD – it makes you SEE THE WORLD the way mankind can’t– can’t any longer see IT, THE WORLD…
You see with fascination upon anything and everything – i truly believe in the notion Nick Sands and Tim Scully had – when they thought that if the whole humanity would take this drug all the horrific stuff that mankind is screwing around with, would change – man would see the world
And when man see with this new perspective, he would be much kinder and happier, living
We need to remake the world, and perhaps it would be the best if it were to be COMPLETELY DEMOLISHED – and then handed to the ROMANTIC man/woman to build a-new as another world, for man has lost the world – WAKE UP!! YOU CAN’T REMEMBER WHERE IT WAS HAD THIS DREAM STOPPED!!
The world could, have BEEN MADE, as something straight out of an ARTISTIC perception of reality: I SAID IT BEFORE; THIS WORLD GOT TOO MANY STRAIGHT LINES! IT’S NOT PRETTY, IT’S NOT PICTURESQUE! This world is built in an NON-ARTISTIC RUSH, of mankind running straight into a wall – it’s CRAZY!
I don’t want this WORLD OF STEEL! THIS INSENSATE, STRAIGHT AND HARD, WORLD– i want the world to be SOFT AND CUDDLY, AND ULTIMATELY KIND..
AN ARTISTIC, FUN-LOVIN WORLD IS WHAT I WANT, REAL SENSUAL, REAL NEAT AND QUEER AND FRUITY – SOMETHING DIONYSIAN AND DECADENT, THE WORLD SOARING HIGH – THIS WORLD IS TOO HECTIC AT PACE AND TOO BLEAK..
I WANT MANKIND TO RECONSIDER E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G ABOUT THIS WORLD AND WHAT IT ALL MEANS!
I WANT THE WORLD I WAS PROMISED BY THE GODS, AS BEFORE I WERE BORN – NOT THIS SOFT PARADE OF A WORLD UNPLEASANT AND CRUEL – MADE OF STEEL AND HATE, I WANT MY LOVE-PLANET! I want to have been born into a world where the FEAST WOULDN’T BEEN OVER DONE – i want the romantic kind of world i can conceive and feel deep inside – NOT SOME BLEAK WORK-WORLD!